It's my midlife, I'll whine if I want to

Updated February 2001

OHMYGAWD you're kidding me... No, I seriously updated this site. Who woulda thunk it?

So it's the sixth month in Northern California. I would really like to say I love living here again, but I reallllllly don't. This isn't the beautiful artsy cultural ocean faced city I remember. Instead it's traffic, grouchy folks, barbie doll women, dotcom men, and pretty much all the plastic one can stomach without becoming nonbiodegradable.

I really didn't like L. A. much either. Remember when I was going there to re-spark my comedy career? It worked. I was getting regular gigs again, and then I moved. The thing is? I still get asked to do gigs fairly regularly so that myth that I could do it in L. A. or nowhere else was obviously flawed. Guess I had a "learning experience". Back here in NorCal, as the dotcommies call it, I'm getting a chance to restart the music career I keep putting on the back burner. Difference now? It's with a band, and we're recording.

In May, I'll be 37 years old. This is funny because most folks think I'm still in my 20's. What they don't know is that I'm sprouting a grey hair yamulke. (Okay I'm not jewish or a guy, but you get the visual...) The other thing they don't know is that it's taking me about 2 minutes longer a day to get out of the bed, get up stairs, or find my car keys. That's six more minutes of my life I've slowed down. In four years, it will be up to a half hour longer...and who knows by the time I'm 50, I may have to get up on Tuesday for a Wednesday appointment.

I'm seriously going through the MID LIFE CRISIS. And no, I still don't feel like I need kids, cos I'm one of those lucky ones who thinks there are enough kids around, all I need to do is adopt one or two someday. I do want to go back to Europe. I hadn't been since I was a teenager, and that was mostly the Shakespeare thing. I really loved most of the time I spent there, and would love to just spend 3 months being a comedienne in another atmosphere or just do music with someone who may have studied mandolin in Italy, or bagpipe in a tube.

I've been in the navy, worked as a nurse's assistant, a store clerk, phone sex operator, (made my dad proud there), radio personality.... and even was a waitress for about three months the first time I moved to San Francisco, in '94. I've got a degree in Experimental Animation, nearly finished a music and a computer science degree, and have another degree in Performance Art/Video/Computer art geek stuff. I can even say proudly, I was Porky Pig. Most of this happened before I even turned 30 years old.

So with all of the flitting about, I figured, after all of the half ass attempts at being your favorite celebrity, I'd just let the heart take over where the survival skills have been in the past. The music stuff has been about 99% of my passion since I was about 12, and before that the writing. So, surprise folks I got a writing agent, and surprise-suprise, I have a contract to complete an album. If Phyllis Diller could begin her run at being a household name when she was a mere 37 years old, why not me?

I've even done something I haven't done my entire life, I've risked it and have set up goals. You know me, goals are for people who don't know that the bus is about to hit them. Expect things from me you wouldn't have thought possible, I'm already on that train.

Thanks for all the letters, and don't forget to sign the guest book!

Cathe