Darker Side

©2000-2002 Cathe Jones

Everyone has a darker side to their life
I'm someone else than the title of wife
I come from the corner that became the truth
Where I'm called into each of the souls I've abused
Where I'm shown the blisters filled with those that I've used
Blood rich dark, I remained unmoved

The thing you touched was not my heart
I'm too dark too worn too far apart
I was hooked on the need you had for me
in that denial there's nothing for you to see
in that hope that someday I would have to feel
although you love, I remain unmoved

In my head I've left a thousand times
In my bed as you sleep and I cry
you've too sweet a mind to be wounded
too much a boy to be the man of my future
too much my child to be someone I'd get used to
although I've gone I'm here beside you

all through this darkness I plan my escape
all through your kindness I find this mistake
and I can only see that you will be wounded
this darker side of mine won't soothe you
but it's the chance I fear to take
to leave a scar for one more soul
who loved me once though not returned

© Cathe Jones 2002